I'm fine right? Of course I'm fine. I'm eating, everyone in my house is eating. We're getting the dishes done finally. We're fine. We've even bathed lately.Then why am I not writing anymore?
How is it that I am stricken by butterflies anytime a therapist, or doctor, or friend/acquaintance suggests I add something?
Where is all my time going?
If somebody says time management, I am going to scream. Because somebody is right.
And somebody is wrong too.
I'm learning to dance the fine line between blind obedience and wisdom on my own. I am starting to know when to follow the Rx to the letter and when to *gasp* toss the stinkin' paper out the window. It's difficult, but I'm getting there.
So yeah. I'm fine. Right? I'm fine.
Sometimes, it doesn't help to pretend. Not when everyone sees it anyway.
Sounds like you're in a confused state. I hope you're okay, and glad you posted. I'm not sure about the reference to the Rx getting tossed out the window, but I always recommend someone consult their doc before making med changes. That may not be what you're talking about. But there are conditions that try to convice us we're okay when we really need a little help. Hang in there!
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ReplyDeleteyou cant do everything
it ok not to listen to all the therapist
it wil be ok i promise
they dont know everything
if ya need to talk let me know
@Leslie- Oh, it's more in reference to my daughter. I would never go off my own Rx. She has seven doctors who-while great doctors-contradict eachother often. It's difficult to know whom to follow.
ReplyDelete@BEE- Thank you! I'm just trying to get my bearings as I add in a few more 'fun' things for me. Like blogging and exercising consistently while taking away my biggest crutch. SUGAR.
the best part of the whey protein is it helps me build muscle faster
ReplyDeleteive been taking it maybe a month and my arms are stacked and i havent changed my workout so it definately makes your muscles build up faster
and it keeps me full from 7am till 1 pm thtas all i have in the morning till lunch at 1 every single day
so i swear by it right now but i may change my mind someday who knows
Blind obedience? Hmmm...I think that the only thing that it's okay to have that kind of obedience to is Christ. Everything else has the potential to leave you wondering why the heck you chose to follow ___________(fill in the blank). I will pray that the tough decisions that you are having to make will become clear. Hang in there!
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ReplyDeleteI'm sorry about the doctor drama, and being a member of the medical profession as well as a human being, totally get the extreme frustration when docs' opinions conflict. I agree that we have to trust our gut often. I hope you come to answers that feel right and yield results. And mostly that your daughter is okay.
I agree with Corletta. Try to pray about things and be lead. When we're I'm out doing what 'I' think I should do or what somebody else thinks I should do, that's generally when I struggle the most. When I have peace about things I know I'm in the right spot. That might not make any sense,lol.
ReplyDeleteI can't even imagine how frustrating it must be to deal with a team of doctors. I have a hard time just dealing with a PCP.
ReplyDeleteWill pray for you to find peace about the decisions you need to make for your daughter.
Hey all, Thank you. Here I am trying to be all spiritual on Sundays. HA! Thank you for reminding me that prayer is a great way to relieve the stress of decisions with my daughter and her care. I'm always intimidated by people that I respect and find it hard to disagree. That will definitely help.
ReplyDeleteI was also posting about just trying to fit this extra BLOG thing that I've fallen in love with into my life. I don't have much extra time. Especially since I've started exercising too.
Thank you all for commenting. It really means a lot!
Remember that mom's KNOW their children really well. You are with them everyday...the doctor isn't. Not to say a doctor isn't "right" BUT you are the mom. Don't underestimate your own knowledge. Does that make sense?
ReplyDelete@Lisa-Of course it does! I wish you were around for the 7 mos. broken record pre-diagnosis. But-I'm not gonna go there and be bitter.
ReplyDeleteMy husband was under the care of several doctors a year ago (and beyond)...and each one gave him meds...it was all just a mess. After lookint at all the meds and their side effects I did a flow chart thing that basically connected 95% of his symptoms to being a side effect of one of the stupid medicines he was on....he'd have a symptom..then get a med for that....then a new one as a result of that med....and a new med for that. It was utterly INSANE...he was the poster child for american pharmacology. I do not know your daughter's issues nor would I ever advocate just taking her off meds. But...it might make sense to look at all the meds and all their side effects...and see if it seems like some of the meds are causing her problems that require more meds.....then go to the doc you trust the most with that info and ask for advice. Sometimes...you have to take the bull by the horns yourself. My husband, by the way...is off ALL the meds now...a year later...and only seeing one doc (a Naturopath...a good one). Amazing....really..how over medicated he was..when the reality (for him) was more about eating better and exercising more and getting more nourishment.
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