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I Want Some



ME WANT COOKIES!

OwNUM NUM NUM.

Did I? Or didn't I?

Days like yesterday make me feel justifiably in need of comfort. Huge machinery whining around my Special girl, lead vests needing to be worn. Specialist after doctor after technician talking seriously. Recommending things I should do more of, telling me I need to do less of. Looking concerned.

"You need to get respite care, take care of ALL your relationships." Ha. I just want a morning alone so I can write.

"She shouldn't be drinking that/vomiting so much/holding her head that way." Really!?! NINE feedings a day. Nine. I'm so tightly wound I can't quite relax before my hour and a half 'break' is done. Good thing they didn't tell me she needed night ones. Someone would've gotten hurt.

So did I cave on my first test of the year?

NO! I did not order the soft drink, I got a HUGE water. (Incidentally I finally figured out how to get a HUGE water at a fast food restaurant: "I want an xl cup filled with fountain water. I will be happy to pay for the cup.") I did get the Reuben @ Arby's and the curly fries. 465 calories is not bad for me for a fast food lunch.

**EXTRA BONUS POINTS!!!** I did not stop at Culvers. I did not have a shake. I did not have any ice cream.

Also, I did NOT have any cookies that were calling my name! What terrible things have you avoided lately?
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  1. AnonymousJanuary 20, 2010 at 7:39 AM

    You did so well. I can't even imagine what you must be going through but can tell you have great strength.

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  2. JourneyBeyondSurvivalJanuary 20, 2010 at 10:12 AM

    @Fit Mommy- Thanks! I hope it hasn't been too much of a drag. It does me good to know you read this. You are a big part of my strength right now.

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  3. AnonymousJanuary 20, 2010 at 1:01 PM

    Great job...

    The cupcakes were literally singing my name when I walked by them in the store today. Seriously...cupcakes should not have special powers :)

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  4. JourneyBeyondSurvivalJanuary 20, 2010 at 1:41 PM

    @ Lisa "One Mom's Weight Loss"- I know! What is up with that? I think telepathic energy should be OUR right as humans.

    It isn't fair.

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  5. LeslieJanuary 20, 2010 at 1:51 PM

    Hi JBS,

    Thanks for visiting my blog and commenting. I hear you about wanting _____________ fill in the blank. Could be anything at any moment. I see your fairly new to blogging - welcome! There is wonderful motivation, inspiration, creativity and support here. Right now, the Follower chunk is out of everyone's side bar, but when it's back I'm going to follow and see how you come along. Good luck!

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  6. JourneyBeyondSurvivalJanuary 20, 2010 at 2:00 PM

    @Leslie-Thank you! It really has been a game changer to add blogging to the mix. I think it is exactly what I needed.

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